December 31 – Core Story. What central story is at the core of you, and how do you share it with the world? (Bonus: Consider your reflections from this month. Look through them to discover a thread you may not have noticed until today)
I think it’s pretty obvious what my core story has been over the past year. In general, I’m hyper-critical of myself. End of story.
Of course, this only fuels some of my self-conscious nature even moreso. But I think it really says something when one of my friends brought it to my attention after she was reading up on some of my reverb10 entries:
Her: “I think you’re far too hard on yourself.”
Her: “You are very self critical.”
Me: “Go easy on me. There’s a lot more coming as you go.
Her: “I’ll go easier on you than you will on yourself.”
When I even point it out jokingly, I think I need to realize it’s not really a joke. I joke because it’s true, but I think also because then I feel I don’t have to do anything about it. I’m going to die a neurotic wreck if I keep this up. Harnessing this for good, and not allowing it to be self-defeating, is really the lesson of the year.
P.S. What’s the deal with hypocritical and hypercritical? The prefixes hypo- and hyper- are opposites in nature, but hypocritical (more specifically hypocrisy) doesn’t even derive itself from the prefix-modifed critical, really.